[mineo's at the beach! he's so tired. he's so tired but he's just watching the ocean now, and he tilts his head when yuri wanders over to him. there is, of course, the guilt and the apology that comes in, but there's also some modicum of surprise that yuri would even approach him]
.... I didn't mean to dredge up bad memories. It was only when I got hit with your emotions during trial that I realized. I'm sorry for not catching it earlier.
.... some of it was Childe's idea. [and there's a little bit of spite at that] But I also... If it was just random chaos, I thought it could accidentally implicate someone innocent if people clung onto it too much, even if it was fake.
So even if it was frustrating... I thought it'd be easier to take up time with stuff that we never figured out. It wouldn't lead to any other suspects that way.
So you listened to Childe, decided to dredge up all the memories of murders we didn't solve, things and people we lost and failed, and killers that are still out there that we haven't caught, on the vague hope we'd kill time solving cases of weeks past so that, what, we wouldn't catch you?
[ his emotions are fairly under control, but there's the odd wobble of anger and tiredness there. ]
I don't feel anything especially negative. I'm not even necessarily angry that we haven't lost anyone this weekend. Playing this place at its own game isn't a bad thing.
[ ... ]
Which makes me angrier. It's a bit of a loop. I don't really know how to explain it.
[ ...... ] What are you trying to achieve here, Mineo?
... nothing special. I want to get my wish without having to bow my head to some fucked up monster, and I want to keep my friends safe. I'm not going to pretend I'm smart or that I have any plans outside of that.
[he knows what he came here for - what he's clinging onto life so badly for. a goal, and the people he cares about.]
It's... not like I'm going to hurt anybody else - or at least, I'll try really hard so I don't have to.
[ he nods. there's still a complicated mix of emotions here -- tiredness, frustration, a little anger, but there is understanding there. if you pressed him on how he's feeling, yuri's not sure he could say. ]
Even if some of those friends you want to protect might be guilty of the same things you killed Childe for?
[ there's... a lack of accusation there. just a point to be made. ]
... Own it. Don't dress it up as something fancy and justifiable. We're all hypocrites who want to survive, after all.
[ . . . . there is a small flicker of offense at that - his brow furrowing as another spike of confusion hits.]
... You might want to start listening to what people say if you're going to talk to them, Yuri-san.
[he hasn't tried to justify what he's done. he owned it as much as he could, gave himself away as soon as he could find a chance to. he knows that he's hypocritical, and he's acknowledged from the start that this is biased and just happened to work in his favor.]
[ the logic, when there are other people who've killed running around? that's where he's stuck for the moment. he tilts his head. it's not just mineo, it's everything right now. even if he can see the paths and threads and the decisions that got to this point. ]
I wanted to ask something regardless, aside from why the callbacks to previous cases -- was there anything stopping you from admitting you were the killer earlier on in the trial?
[he can be stuck all he wants, but mineo doesn't mind giving answers. he just minds when it feels like someone's making their own judgments on him that aren't related to what he's saying - though he still knows he's not in any place to argue it.
yuri really can think whatever he wants of him.]
... I promised before that I wouldn't give up when it comes to my life. I believed in the no vote, but it'd be easier if people didn't have any leads at all. So I stayed quiet, because I owed that much to the people who'd freak out and try to protect me.
But when people started discussing powers that I didn't have, and the lead got further away from me and toward others - I tried to bring it back.
[he was always going to confess as soon as it looked like someone else was going to take the fall for him - but he couldn't do it any sooner than that without spitting in the face of everyone who wants him safe]
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[ he doesn't really think anything less of mineo than he thinks of himself, which is maybe sort of a point here. ]
Mm. Only one gun.
[ they'd all chosen not to vote, after all. ]
If that's what it is, then that's what it is. We all have people here we care about more than others, and those are the people we want to protect, regardless of what we do to do that. But I'm not mad you're still alive, for whatever that's worth.
[ ... ] Might've been less of a kick in the shin if you'd told Childe to piss off when he started suggesting leaving old evidence around the place, though. Whatever the intentions were, it didn't work out.
Yeah. I get that. And I can only apologize and - well, it's not like I'll ever do it again... but I can try to make up for it with the time I have. I'm sorry, and I'd take it back if I could. [but he knows that he can't. still, he hopes that his sincerity can come across]
I know I'm lucky to have the time that I do because people chose to abstain.
[so he plans on making use of that time to help people however he can]
Alright then. [ he got answers to what he wanted to ask at least. ]
We all made our choices when we didn't vote yesterday. Least we can do now is see things through to the end, and hopefully it'll be something at least semi-positive.
[ he's quiet for a moment, before giving mineo a pat on the shoulder and turning to go. ]
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.... I didn't mean to dredge up bad memories. It was only when I got hit with your emotions during trial that I realized. I'm sorry for not catching it earlier.
.... some of it was Childe's idea. [and there's a little bit of spite at that] But I also... If it was just random chaos, I thought it could accidentally implicate someone innocent if people clung onto it too much, even if it was fake.
So even if it was frustrating... I thought it'd be easier to take up time with stuff that we never figured out. It wouldn't lead to any other suspects that way.
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So you listened to Childe, decided to dredge up all the memories of murders we didn't solve, things and people we lost and failed, and killers that are still out there that we haven't caught, on the vague hope we'd kill time solving cases of weeks past so that, what, we wouldn't catch you?
[ his emotions are fairly under control, but there's the odd wobble of anger and tiredness there. ]
I suppose it worked then. Congratulations.
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No.
But if that's what you want to think, then I can't argue what you've decided to feel about me.
[because that isn't what he said, but he also knows he's not in a position to fight what yuri heard]
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I don't feel anything especially negative. I'm not even necessarily angry that we haven't lost anyone this weekend. Playing this place at its own game isn't a bad thing.
[ ... ]
Which makes me angrier. It's a bit of a loop. I don't really know how to explain it.
[ ...... ] What are you trying to achieve here, Mineo?
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[he knows what he came here for - what he's clinging onto life so badly for. a goal, and the people he cares about.]
It's... not like I'm going to hurt anybody else - or at least, I'll try really hard so I don't have to.
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Even if some of those friends you want to protect might be guilty of the same things you killed Childe for?
[ there's... a lack of accusation there. just a point to be made. ]
... Own it. Don't dress it up as something fancy and justifiable. We're all hypocrites who want to survive, after all.
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... You might want to start listening to what people say if you're going to talk to them, Yuri-san.
[he hasn't tried to justify what he's done. he owned it as much as he could, gave himself away as soon as he could find a chance to. he knows that he's hypocritical, and he's acknowledged from the start that this is biased and just happened to work in his favor.]
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[ the logic, when there are other people who've killed running around? that's where he's stuck for the moment. he tilts his head. it's not just mineo, it's everything right now. even if he can see the paths and threads and the decisions that got to this point. ]
I wanted to ask something regardless, aside from why the callbacks to previous cases -- was there anything stopping you from admitting you were the killer earlier on in the trial?
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yuri really can think whatever he wants of him.]
... I promised before that I wouldn't give up when it comes to my life. I believed in the no vote, but it'd be easier if people didn't have any leads at all. So I stayed quiet, because I owed that much to the people who'd freak out and try to protect me.
But when people started discussing powers that I didn't have, and the lead got further away from me and toward others - I tried to bring it back.
[he was always going to confess as soon as it looked like someone else was going to take the fall for him - but he couldn't do it any sooner than that without spitting in the face of everyone who wants him safe]
trying to phrase this at 1:50am destroys the becks
Mm. Only one gun.
[ they'd all chosen not to vote, after all. ]
If that's what it is, then that's what it is. We all have people here we care about more than others, and those are the people we want to protect, regardless of what we do to do that. But I'm not mad you're still alive, for whatever that's worth.
[ ... ] Might've been less of a kick in the shin if you'd told Childe to piss off when he started suggesting leaving old evidence around the place, though. Whatever the intentions were, it didn't work out.
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Yeah. I get that. And I can only apologize and - well, it's not like I'll ever do it again... but I can try to make up for it with the time I have. I'm sorry, and I'd take it back if I could. [but he knows that he can't. still, he hopes that his sincerity can come across]
I know I'm lucky to have the time that I do because people chose to abstain.
[so he plans on making use of that time to help people however he can]
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Alright then. [ he got answers to what he wanted to ask at least. ]
We all made our choices when we didn't vote yesterday. Least we can do now is see things through to the end, and hopefully it'll be something at least semi-positive.
[ he's quiet for a moment, before giving mineo a pat on the shoulder and turning to go. ]